Pinhole of Santa Barbara Mission
22 Mar
Pinhole photograph of roses outside of the Santa Barbara Mission, Santa Barbara, California.
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This pinhole photograph was taken on a perfect day. With my love, in our perfect yellow VW Bug, driving up the most perfect road, weaving in and out of perfect hidden mansions, palm trees and tropical flowers… I look at this photograph and wonder what happened?
…and my mind draws a blank.
Time is a perplexing concept, so much can happen in such a short period. If you asked me on that day, where I saw myself in the next few months, I would have said living in gorgeous Santa Barbara, California, doing pinhole portraits of those free spirited residents. South Korea wasn’t yet a thought conceived.
In the past 3 months, I’ve made decisions that have changed my future indefinitely. Decisions I never thought possible (especially on the day of this photograph). Decisions, that I chose to execute, leaving me in tears. Decisions that I question daily.
I’ve started a new journey. Alone. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know what I’m looking for. I don’t know what happens next.
I’m sure of three things. I travel. I pinhole my adventures. I dream (out loud, in my sleep, on paper).
Good bye perfect day of the past. You seem like a lifetime ago.
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